白鹿之名

来源:鬼怪吧 作者:有船 民间故事 2018-02-09
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秋声凄厉,阴云密布。父亲气息奄奄,身体虚弱到已经无法承受手术,仅能睁开一条缝的眼睛里透露的是无可奈何的生无可恋。然而,恐怕也不会比三十年前他年少时洪水暴虐的那个夜晚更加绝望。

尽管每次讲起那段往事,他总一脸哀伤而神往的微笑,好像英雄般地在洪水中拯救了两个年幼的妹妹就足以骄傲一生似的。

程白鹿不怀疑父亲的英雄之举,却对他这段掺杂了怪力乱神的往事不以为然,乃至不屑搭腔。但垂危的父亲却不放过她,时不时喃喃自语:“白鹿,白鹿……”

有护士疑惑她的置之不理。

“啊,他并不是叫我。”

父亲是在呼唤他心目中的圣境,程白鹿就是这么想的。

所谓圣境,是指一只白鹿,那只在深夜的洪水中蓦然出现带领他走出危境的白鹿。也因为这,在有了女儿之后,他给她取名白鹿。

话说看见白鹿的那晚,村镇在遭受了三四天的暴雨打击之后起了大洪水。堤坝崩溃洪流奔涌的时候,村人正在忧心忡忡的睡梦里祈祷。程家比全镇绝大多数人家离堤坝都近,几间本来挺像模样的瓦房眨眼之间被连根“没收”。程白鹿从没见过的爷爷奶奶连同几百个本村人就死于那场大水,而身强力壮的父亲带着他的两个妹妹,躲在了大树上。等待了好久之后,一只白鹿不知为何出现在大树下,在昏暗的天地间,它浑身好像发着光。它从大树出发,向南不急不缓地奔走。与此同时,水势渐渐缓下去,父亲携两个妹妹跟随白鹿,蹚过浅浅的水,来到一片几乎未遭洪水侵袭的高地。由此,兄妹三人得救了。

程白鹿对这故事耳熟能详。每当她要求父亲讲讲当年家乡这场著名的洪水,父亲总是笑着三言两语带过,好像一切都没什么大不了,反倒故意多描述那白鹿几句,替自己吹嘘几句。总之程白鹿半信半疑,只当传说故事听了。

程白鹿并不愿在此刻再聽一遍这个多半虚构的故事。然而,父亲许是考虑到来日无多,执意要求坐起来,认真要将这故事全部讲给女儿。程白鹿时而支起耳朵把那些喃喃碎语都收拢到记忆仓库里归置成篇,时而听着窗外呜咽的秋风等待父亲喘息匀了讲下去。故事与之前不同,首先,在于多了一个角色──父亲的弟弟。

洪水来临时的片刻工夫,程家父母拉起了几个孩子。为保护他们登上高处,双双被卷入混浊的大水中。

那时的父亲处在满身力气使不完且好惹是生非的十九岁,他连抱带背,身上挂着两个小妹妹,爬上了门口超过一人抱粗的大槐树。他刚在树上安稳下来,就做梦一样看见自己的家消失得无影无踪。

相比于远近村人此起彼伏的哀叫呼号,浩浩荡荡的洪水显得安静极了。在助威的瓢泼大雨里,他把两个妹妹护在怀里,两眼发热忍住没哭。

“哥哥,哥哥──”

他这才想起弟弟,被全家人如往常一样遗忘的弟弟。他循声音看去,弟弟凭着凫水的本事,正抱着一截浮木漂漂荡荡。之前许是爬上了一棵不大的树或者房顶,结果被冲倒在大水里。弟弟仰着脸望着大槐树上的哥哥妹妹,想游过去同他们在一起,但洪水的力量越来越大,而他的力气愈来愈弱。

“稳住!我来接你!”父亲下到树干上。他一只手臂紧紧搂住树干,不敢撒手,另一只手伸在不断流逝又不断涌来的水面上,试图去抓弟弟的手。

弟弟咬着牙拼命踩水,却是无法再前进一步,只能一点点随洪水而去。

终于,弟弟大声抽泣着,放弃了投奔哥哥。他大概知道自己在洪流中不可能找到安身之地,于是在彼此还看得到对方的时候大喊:“哥哥,妈妈呢?”

圆圆的脑袋极力伸出水面,表情在夜色里模糊不清,那是父亲看见弟弟的最后一眼。

时年,十一岁。

身为哥哥以男子汉自诩的父亲平日总嫌弟弟孱弱,看见弟弟哭,就忍不住再捶他一顿,却在那晚的树上平生第一次失声痛哭。他十九岁,被父母娇惯着长大,聚众打架是家常便饭,抽烟也已经手法老练,坏事情全出自他手,堪称全村人公认的麻烦。洪水过后,除了两个不超过八岁的妹妹,父亲一无所有,所有的恶习亦一齐冲刷殆尽。

白鹿的出现,是在弟弟消失之后,黎明到来之前。幽幽白光,指引前路,情形与之前无数次听到的略有不同。在到达安全地带之后,白鹿停了下来,好像是犹豫了一刹那,它慢慢转回头,望了父亲一眼。之后它钻入杂乱的树丛中,再不可见。

打从内心深处,父亲始终觉得并且相信,那只白鹿是弟弟的化身。孱弱的弟弟不曾哭喊着要哥哥救他,而英雄的哥哥未敢不顾一切去救他。可他还是回来了一下下。

父亲的怀念,着落在四年后出生的女儿身上,以白鹿之名,跨时空相陪半生。而与之共生的惭悔,沉积在他心里,如同一江秋水,在他离世之前决堤漫溢。

在深秋最后的残景里,不知父亲是否畏惧死亡。只是程白鹿后来偶然想到那只白鹿,忽然相信了父亲心中是存在着圣境的。白鹿所在的那片凄清、安详之境,就是父亲一生终将到达的地方。

Introduce:Qiu Sheng is sad and shrill, clouded. Father at the point of death, the body is frail arrive to cannot have borne operation, can opening what disclose in a seamed eye only is have no alternative is unripe without can love. However, be afraid that night that also won't compare violence of the flood when he is junior 30 years ago is more acedia. Although be told every time,have that paragraph of past event, he always one face grief and the smile of be charmed, was like the ground like the hero to save two in the flood year young little sister with respect to enough pride like lifetime. Of the hero that Cheng Bailu does not suspect father lift, right however the past that he adulterated this paragraph to blame force confused look objects, and even distain answer. But dying father does not let off her however, mutter from time to time: "Bai Lu, bai Lu …… " have nurse doubt her ignore. "Ah, he is not to call me. " father is the holy condition in calling his memory, cheng Bailu thinks so. Alleged emperor condition, it is to point to a Bai Lu, the suddenly in that flood in the late night appears the Bai Lu that guides him to walk out of danger area. Also because of this, after having a daughter, he names Bai Lu to her. The word says to see Bai Lu that evening, the deluge had after bourg was sufferring rainstorm of 34 days to hit. Dikes and dams breaks down when onrush flushs, village person is praying in anxiety-ridden sleep. Home Cheng is closer from dikes and dams than pressing down great majority other people completely, a few hold out the tile-roofed house that resembles about to blink originally between the root that be connected " confiscate " . The grandfather grandma along with that Cheng Bailu never has seen this hundreds of village people die at that flood, and two little sisters that strong father is bringing him, hide on large tree. After awaiting for ages, a Bai Lu does not know why to appear below large tree, between dim heaven and earth, it seems to sending light all over. It sets out from large tree, xiang Na is not urgent not delay ground runs. Meanwhile, flow of water gradually delay goes down, father carries two little sisters to follow Bai Lu, Zuo crosses shallow water, come to an upland that did not invade almost by the flood. From this, sibling 3 people got rescued. Cheng Bailu is right this story familiar to the ear can detailed. Every time she asks father is told tell in those days home town this famous flood, father always is laughing at in a few words to had been taken, be like everything it doesn't matter is alarming, instead describes Na Bailu intentionally more a few, boast for oneself a few. Uncertainty of anyhow Cheng Bailu, listened when fabulous story only. Cheng Bailu does not wish to be engraved here again Long this most fiction. However, father is made is consideration arrival day without many, be determined to ask to sit up, want to tell this story the daughter entirely seriously. From time to time of Cheng white deer raises an ear to mutter those broken language furl puts in buy 's charge to become in memorial storehouse piece, from time to time is listening the autumn wind of the sob outside the window awaits father asthma